Daily affirmations of a word mercenary
I spend a lot of time at home. Perhaps this is a slight misstatement, as it seems that a week will go by and I’ve left the house only to 1) go grocery shopping 2) attend dance class 3) there is no third time.
Perhaps I should worry that I’m becoming agoraphobic? That I’m going to be the scary woman in the crusted bathrobe who has the painfully distorted worldview — everything fish bowled like the front door peep-hole? That I’ll be that “she seemed like a nice person” who’s neighbors only know something is wrong when the a strange smells start coming from the apartment? The hermit who’s door will be broken down by policemen, only find me in a state of serious decomposition on the carpet, my darling pet rats sadly nibbling me as my body liquifies and dribbles through the floor, staining the stucco ceiling of my neighbor below?
Perhaps it should concern me that, despite living a few blocks from the beach, I like to hide inside, my heinous vertical blinds drawn against the sunlight, protecting me from the gazes of people eternally working on the exterior of my apartment building? Should it freak me out that I count going to fetch the mail as a “big day out”? Should my boyfriend be concerned that my first question when he gets home at night is, “What’s out like … out there,” a little quaver in my voice, a scared glance at the door, and my bible clutched with little varicosed hands? (Ok, now I’m exaggerating. I’ll reign it in.)
I’m not worried or concerned. It’s just that, despite the fact that I now live in Los Angeles, The Place Where Seasons Happen To Other People, I really am a Seattleite, and any sane Seattleite will tell you that once November rolls around, you stay inside. You’ve collected your nuts and berries all summer and fall, and now it’s time to hibernate with your carbohydrates, books, and significant other/vibrator.
Never mind the fact that it’s sunny and 60° F outside. In the land of Ariel, we’re going to pretend we can hear the reassuring fingertips of rain tapping on the roof. Never mind that there’s an apartment between the roof and me. Just let’s pretend that it’s misty and gray and cold and mildewy. That long sweaters and thick socks are required. That you can smell the leaves becoming soil outside. That you need to drink hot spiced cider or sangria to stay warm.
Hey there. I'm Ariel Meadow Stallings, a native Seattleite who's written my way up and down the Left Coast. Electrolicious is where I post daily randomata, but I also write for a living. My first book, Offbeat Bride, was published last year.
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Margie
November 5th, 2002 at 7:36 pm
You sound like you miss it. I would! It’s simply gawgeous up here these days.
dani
November 5th, 2002 at 8:59 pm
awwww. makes me miss seattle too! despite the fact that the topic is kinda bummin’, this entry is very excellent writing.
RoadtoHana
November 5th, 2002 at 10:42 pm
Let’s hang out sometime!
I am fairly new to L.A. myself and being a German I tend to stay indoors myself - let’s pretend it’s fall, Seattle style!
jodi
November 6th, 2002 at 12:58 am
i’d hate to move somewhere without seasons. i think it would be very confusing for my body.
poor ariel!
dc
November 6th, 2002 at 7:11 am
same thing happened to me when I lived in PHX. for a while. same exact thing.
leblanc
November 6th, 2002 at 9:42 am
awwww sista you sound so sad. and i know LA can get you down, even with the “perfect weather”. when you grow up in a different climate, even when it’s “perfect” it still doesn’t seem normal and throws your body/mind all out of whack. however, i do recommend going outside more regardless
smooch.
oze
November 6th, 2002 at 11:01 am
After being stranded in CA for awhile, I don’t miss the Seattle drizzle one iota. Join us…bwahahahaha.
Some like it hot.
esther
November 6th, 2002 at 11:53 am
no. you think you miss it, but you really don’t. the spigot turned on here today (i live in portland) and i know it’s not gonna turn off till june. it’s true, as i was riding my bike to work i felt those warm fuzzies at the way the gray mist made everything seem warm and homey. . .but i know in a few months i’ll be going cabinfevermad.
maybe in february or something we should have a house switch. then i can hoop on the beach and you can drink all the hot spiced cider you want.
Vera
November 6th, 2002 at 12:21 pm
Funny, when I moved from Germany to So. Cal. I was more thankful about the weather change than about anything else. I didn’t get sick for three years! But maybe the difference is that I was the driving force behind the move whereas in your case it seems someone else was?
amanda
November 6th, 2002 at 4:21 pm
I love this…..”reassuring fingertips of rain tapping on the roof.”…….
You’ve described the sound of rain perfectly!
Steve Hecht
November 6th, 2002 at 10:31 pm
You missed an opportunity to use “deliquesce”.
Martin
November 7th, 2002 at 9:13 am
You should come to the National Agoraphobics Convention in New Orleans November 28-29. Last year 4 people came, and we’re expecting equally great turnout this time!
kim
November 11th, 2002 at 8:35 am
well.. mixed feelings. it’s nice curling up all warm-n-soft… but it’s also nice when you don’t HAVE to. the leaves do smell good, though.