Daily affirmations of a word mercenary
A few weeks ago, I was at a cocktail party where it was drunkenly revealed that all of us in the room were second generation. For those of you just joining us here in 21st century
The thing about both hippies and genuine immigrants is that a lot of changes happen between the first and second generation. The sneakiest thing about second generations is that we don’t always look like our parents — we’re subversive that way. First generation hippies birthed themselves from the cultural confines of the American suburbs and can be reactionary, intoning “I am NOT THAT which I came from, so I claim this NEW mind frame — and must make it known,” as they strip their khakis and don their free-flowing cotton clothes. First generation hippies tend to be recognizable and vocal (and in the worst of cases, righteous). They’re breaking out of a paradigm, out of the repressive culture in which they were raised, and as any paradigm-breaker can tell you, it’s a loud and ugly process. Whether you’re new to a country or lifestyle, there are some bumps on the road. Sometimes you make an ass of yourself. But like most immigrants, the transition and hard work is done for the good of future generations.
And like many second generation immigrants, hippy children take their parents’ hard earned perspective for granted and feel less of a need to parade their ideologies as visually or vocally. Oh, of course I’ve always had a choice between shaving and not shaving. Oh, of course whole grains are better for you — did you really think Wonderbread was healthy? Oh, of course women and men are equal. Jeez, Mom. THEN what happens? (Answer: Katie Roiphe.)
Realistically, second generations are by their very nature somewhat thankless and privileged. We didn’t know how hard it was in the “old country” (in this case, mainstream 1950s
Also, like many second generation immigrants, we’re a little intolerant of first generation immigrant peers. Sometimes I get exhausted when yet another yuppy kid from my high school decides to sell the SUV, get a dog, and move off the grid. I mean, yes, it’s wonderful. I’m so glad they’re making that choice, but I was raised with that shit already figured out, and processing someone else’s awakening can be tedious at times. See? There’s that thankless sense of privilege; that tedious arrogance. I apologize, but regardless of how intolerant or impatient it may make me sound, I have been known to get irritated when friends dive into some new spirituality while espousing the power of wheatgrass. I have been known to and mutter under my breath, “Ok, ok, I get it, I get it,” while thinking to myself, “God, this is tiresome. But their kids will be really cool!”
Sometimes the pendulum swings: as a second generation teenager, all I wanted was to get as far away from my parents’ values as possible. I didn’t smoke, didn’t drink, and was fastidiously uninterested in drugs (”Ew, pot? Pot is for old people!”). My first boyfriend drove a truck, wore a baseball cap, and lived in a house with white carpets and a hot tub. His background was everything mine had never been: conservative, suburban, and unbelievably interesting. While my bedroom was a refurbished school bus parked outside the log house my parents built, my boyfriend slept under vertical blinds, with a sliding glass door and a patio outside. So cool! While my parents made tofu burgers and talked about women’s healthcare, dinners with my boyfriend and his divorced dad included meatloaf and football games. Riveting! Finally, I was tapped into the real
I had several years of these exploratory mainstream studies. During college, friends amazed that I’d never had ribs took me to a mini-mall where they watched, fascinated, as I struggled with my bib and tried to figure out how to eat around the bones. I tried not to talk too loudly or crassly, I drank beer, I bought a car on credit (an absolute crime when your father’s job involves promoting public transit), I moved to
After a few years, however, my upbringing got the better of me. I’m certainly not the only person approaching 30 who’s realized with a touch of horror that I’ve become more like my parents than younger me ever could have ever anticipated. More often than not, that’s how it goes. Plenty of second generation immigrants find themselves strangely acting out in ways their parents would love. With hippies, think of the Boomers trading in their VW buses for Beemers in the ’80s. Well, the ’90s saw me trading in my conservative boyfriend for a vegan raised by lesbian college professors. I quit my job at the law firm and became a writer. Despite the fact that second generations grow up in a cultural environment so drastically different from their parents, it’s almost terrifying to see how easy it is to end up with all the parental ideologies firmly entrenched. It’s almost as if going back to vegetarianism wasn’t a choice — I was genetically compelled!
With a few exceptions including agnosticism and leg waxing, my pendulum returned to my parent’s side of the clock case. I do believe, however, that this swing may have contributed to my arrogant impatience of my first generation hippy friends. My 20s were spent realizing that I actually agreed with many of my parents’ ideals. This is in stark contrast to my first generation hippy friends who spent their 20s figuring out that they disagreed with many of their parents’ ideas; that in fact Wonderbread isn’t a food group.
Naturally, when discussing a second generation, it’s impossible not to think of the inevitable third generation. My childhood was full of mocking my parents and adoring my grandparents. My paternal grandmother would let me watch all the TV I wanted — which stood out in stark contrast to my parents, who tyrannically tried to limit me to only an hour a day. (My parents won out on that front: I don’t even own a television, now.) My maternal grandmother would sneak over bags of candy (which contained what even as a child I knew was called refined sugar) which I hid under my bed and rationed to myself like a junky. While my mother made me yogurt from scratch in the kitchen, I would be up in my bedroom tweaking out on refined sugar courtesy of my Grandma/Drug Courier. Eventually, either as I grew up or as my parents’ ideals saturated my young, impressionable mind and took it over like a fungus, my grandparents lost some of their appeal. When my grandmother referred to the people in the condo downstairs as her “loud colored neighbors,” I think the coffin was sealed: I was sure I wasn’t my like my parents, but I was also sure I definitely wasn’t like my grandparents either.
As for the third generation of hippy immigrants, who can tell now which way they will turn. Will the lessons of their grandparents be lost on these youngins? Will the pendulum swing yet again, and will this third generation resent their parents (me and my compatriots) for not respecting the first generation enough? “Grandma told me cool stories about new age rituals, Mom. Why don’t WE ever do new age rituals? And Grandpa told me about rock music festivals outside! Why do we always go to those indoor techno parties? This sucks. I’m staying with Grandma for the weekend.”
And to that I’ll probably say, “Fine, Miss Phoenix Megapixel Stallings, you go do that. Just don’t try sneaking any of that fucking wheatgerm back in here with you!”
Hey there. I'm Ariel Meadow Stallings, a native Seattleite who's written my way up and down the Left Coast. Electrolicious is where I post daily randomata, but I also write for a living. My first book, Offbeat Bride, was published last year.
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leblanc
September 16th, 2003 at 12:02 pm
as a second gen hippie myself, i totally relate here. i went through a short period around my sophmore year of college, after moving from the homemade house in the sticks to a university full of rich jewish kids with everything in the world that i never had, where i had yuppie boyfriend who drove a Corvette and lived in a house with white carpets and a $10,000 couch. but that period didn’t last long at all, as i soon realized it wasn’t me, and yes, as i approach 30, i am more like my parents in a lot of ways that i ever thought i would be. but that, IMO, is a good thing.
leblanc
September 16th, 2003 at 12:04 pm
p.s. that’s also where my “i am NOT a hippie” thing comes from; i grew up with hippies. as far as i see myself, i’m not one, although people who did not grow up with hippies often put me in that category b/c they don’t have anything to compare it to.
nikki
September 16th, 2003 at 6:24 pm
Well done.
Speaking as a non-hippie child of non-hippies who went through an early “hey, dreadlocks are neat…I’m really into Buddism” phase before jumping back into my conservative suburbia, I still get your point…your swing back to your roots point, anyway.
God bless red meat and trans-fatty acids!
Michael
September 16th, 2003 at 11:09 pm
Sorry east coast, whatever generation. My parents weren’t hippies, neither of them as far as I know ever took anything that might be considered illegal.
The only hippie cred my father might ever had had, was the fact that he almost was lynched while attending Southern Miss in the 60’s.
And I have never had to tackle the questions you did. To me pot was bad, but then beer and various synthetics were ok, and that might have to do with the fact that my dad smoked cigs too much. (and I never smoked cigs)
My family was blue collar all the way, as in the east coast blue. The college degree but work with your hands career.
philippe
September 17th, 2003 at 1:45 am
Yes ! great piece !
Just a couple of thoughts (you asked for it):
-You don’t need hippies parents to benefit from the cultural evolutions they made possible in the last 30 - 40 years : women/men equality, pot, rock music, environmental concerns, gay rights… it’s all mainstream and granted now. Not new age rituals maybe, but still. So, what “paradigm” is left for the second generation to break out ?
Actualy, as you wrote, the “pendulum” may swang back. The second generation may want to keep the cool things (teen age sex, pot…) but also want SUVs, weddings, police in their streets…
- What about politics ? You deal with individual issues, but what happened to political involvement and collective issues ?
joy
September 17th, 2003 at 7:21 am
Very interesting, although, like Nikki, I’m a child of suburbia and can’t exactly relate. Reminds me of this great book by the psychologist Sandra Bem called “An Unconventional Family”. It focuses more on the gender/sexual revolution specifically. In the seventies she and her psychologist husband wanted to raise their children free of gender roles and stereotypes. The book documents how they created this family and gives little anticdotes. The best part is the appendix at the end where there are brief interviews with Bem’s son and daughter who are now in their 20’s. For the most part they seem grateful for their untraditional upbringing, but I found it interesting that the son said he occasionally felt like something was WRONG with him since he was heterosexual. There had been so much emphasis on accepting homosexuality and bisexuality that he felt like a bit of a freak for being straight.
TChemGrrl
September 17th, 2003 at 8:30 am
My dad was a rock musician in the 70’s. ‘Nuff said.
Although my parents were a slightly different breed of hippy than yours (might be an east coast/west coast thing) I definitely understand where you’re coming from–especially the part about the suburban kids discovering these AMAZING religions, drugs, etc., when you’ve been meditating since you were 5. And even though my pendulum APPEARS to be way on other side (a married engineer that’s never done drugs), I think that having a lot of the inborn assumptions you talked about has made me a much more mature person than I would be if I’d been brought up in Pure Suburbia. I always knew that my side of the story wasn’t the only one.
Also, it’s fun to be able to mess with the heads of casual acquaintances.
eve
September 17th, 2003 at 10:48 am
wait… so… i don’t get it..
the first gen does the immigrating, and all of you are second generation (”children of those immigrants”)?
so how can only one of you have a parent who wasn’t born in the states if all your parents were doing the immigrating from somewhere else?
where were they immigrating from? iowa?
Ariel
September 17th, 2003 at 10:52 am
Erm, Eve, that’s the twist: I’m making a tongue in cheek comparison between honest to god “second generation” immigrants, and “second generation” hippy children. So to answer your question literally: yes, could be Iowa.
eve
September 17th, 2003 at 10:57 am
i had to read that twice. i guess being actually the child of an immigrant made me not understand the allegory of hippy-as-foreign-culture thingy…
however, i think that it’s a faulty theory to say that the social responses of the children of a subculture are analogous (sp?) to the cultural schism of the children of people who moved their entire lives and families into a new strange world.
Ariel
September 17th, 2003 at 11:04 am
A totally valid criticism, Eve, and I agree with you: the two experiences are not analogous without some stretching and framing for the purposes of humor and entertainment…which is why I wrote the piece as a bit of narrative nonfiction, and arduously avoided the heavily-researched intellectual angle. It definitely doesn’t work from the literal perspective (people as aliens because they dropped acid?), but from an allegorical one, it seems to resonate with some folks.
eve
September 17th, 2003 at 11:16 am
my parents were actually also hippies: from the chakras and faith healing to me, coming home at 12 years-old and my mom saying ‘oh, and if you see little green men, it’s ok… we invited them.’
i suppose i simply never thought to see if there were any similarities between my experience / reaction / response to one (child of hippies) versus the other (child of immigrants)…
Ariel
September 17th, 2003 at 11:25 am
HA! Wow, now that’s a piece of narrative I’d love to read! Do you write about your experiences growing up on your blog much? What a facinating combination of cultural influences! Now I must go to your site and read all the archives to see what stories came out of the experience.
leblanc
September 17th, 2003 at 2:13 pm
i want to agree with philippe: you might want to tone down the “hippier than thou” attitude a bit …. it kind of gives the impression that you assume those who’ve grown up in, say, chicago suburbs have never heard of organic juicing or don’t know about alternative religions, or aren’t as liberal as those who grew up in the Pacific Northwest in old school buses. A great many suburban parents - especially schoolteachers and such - make a great effort to “multiculturalize” their kids. and i agree with eve that it took me a minute to get that you were drawing a parallel between the children of foreigners and the children of hippies…. some may actually find it quite insulting.
Ariel
September 17th, 2003 at 2:16 pm
Yup, I’ve actually been waiting for someone to find it really insulting.
As for “hippier than thou,” I’m having trouble seeing it. Methinks I probably need to not look at the essay for a couple weeks before revising it.
trisha
September 17th, 2003 at 4:12 pm
Actually, it is a little insulting. I’m second generation & I was all excited when I started reading thinking your parents were from some European country & then…blargh. I think you should’ve at least talked to a few second generation folks before trying to make the connections you did, even if you don’t really want it to be “intellectual” or “researched”. I get what you’re trying to say, but it doesn’t sound like we had very similar experiences growning up(or currently). There is a huge struggle of cultural identity and sense of loss that I still deal with as an adult.
You have a lot more choice-you can be “normal” or you can be a hippie, I cannot slide between cultures quite so easily.
But I like the hippie part of it-it’s interesting to hear about your childhood.
Ariel
September 17th, 2003 at 4:15 pm
Hey, Trisha. Thanks for your comment. I actually *did* talk to a few genuine second generation folks (most notably Ernie), who found the comparison mildly amusing.
I agree that it’s a stretch, although I hope that the humor keeps it from being genuinely offensive.
Vera
September 18th, 2003 at 9:08 am
I think the analogy would work better the other way around: Since hippies make up a relatively small subculture, THEY are really the foreigners immigrating into mainstream America. In your essay, suburbans are the ones immigrating to hippieland, which might not be that realistic. But I understand that if you had reversed things, your second vs. first generation points wouldn’t work anymore.
P.S.: I do see the “hippier than thou” tone quite a bit here. Look closer.
Vera
September 18th, 2003 at 9:10 am
Thanks for clearing up the meaning of first generation, by the way. For some reason, I always thought that I was the “zeroth generation” since I was the one doing the immigrating.
Ariel
September 18th, 2003 at 9:19 am
Yeah, I realized when chatting via AIM with Amy Leblanc that the “hippier than thou” quality that she was speaking of was that acknowledged thankless tone of priviledge. I’m embodying the very thing I write about.
Then again: just assuming that a hippy perspective is “priviledged” is remarkably arrogant.
Regardless, it’s been a while since I’ve written something that people wanted to argue over. And I missed it!
As Ernie said yesterday, it’s almost like I’m writing about raves again!
db
September 18th, 2003 at 9:57 pm
I’ve found so many cases where the 2nd gen hippie child was more mainstream than the children of most “conservative” parents. I’m still not really sure where I came from, actually. My parents (mother, stepfather, and father) were all relatively “normal” as far as social standards go. There was never any “hippie role model” for me. My musical tastes naturally leaned towards the hippie soundtrack (though, in general, I’m all over the map) and through th vibes conveyed, a lifestyle more or less ensued. All living donr since leaving the nest has been communal type living. I think I actually prefer it to having my own place. I’m a social type of person, and perhaps this ties in with it. Of course, it’s hard to really identify anyone as a “hippie” anymore. The term has been so sterotyped that it’s really almost not even valid anymore. I wonder what moniker they’ll come up with next…
cory
September 19th, 2003 at 3:51 pm
You actually have to write a completely different piece on immigrating from Iowa… being 2nd generation myself… my parents were rebelling from the small town, farming, uneducated, xenophobic way of life… they skipped the hippie and went straight to the yuppy… weird conservative mix….