Despite all my pampering and head-rubbing on Friday, I had a bit of a wedding-induced meltdown late last night, getting all whimpery and whiney about various things that are pretty much inconsequential. (Example whine: “But I won’t be able to talk to everyone! And people will be disappointed and feel ignored! And if I talk too much to friends, I’ll be a bad daughter, and if I talk too much too family, I’ll be a bad friend. Oh woe! Woe is whiney me!”) Andreas, bless him, got out of bed at 1am to make me a cup of valerian root tea. The combination of the tea and the reassuring boyfriend succeeded helping me fall asleep right away. I then had weird twisted dreams about there not being running water at the wedding. I’m deeply embarassed by all this anxiety. Aren’t I better than this?
The anxiety is especially embarassing since everything is going so well! I had my second-to-last fitting with Chaya from DaintyCore yesterday. I was stunned that the costume satin we bought for $3.50/yard turned out so lovely…the a-line skirt Chaya made drapes and hangs in a way that suggests much higher quality fabric. I also wore my corset around for a couple hours yesterday just to see if it would make me fainty or vomitrocious. Answer: nope. Felt down-right comfortable! Also: Dori is making me some amazing necklace/art to wear, and I’ve got so much help and support from so many other wonderful people. There is no need for this anxiety. ANXIETY BE GONE!
I’m working on the week-of/day-of schedule today, and scraping together the info for the program. I apologize in advance, but Electrolicious may become a little bridal-centric for the next few weeks. Forgive me.
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Hey there. I'm Ariel Meadow Stallings, a native Seattleite who's written my way up and down the Left Coast. Electrolicious is where I post daily randomata, but I also write for a living. My first book, Offbeat Bride, was published last year.
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heidi wright
July 12th, 2004 at 4:37 pm
okay honey first things first.
we know you’re a bride. it’s YOUR day. anyone who’s ever been a bride knows that it’s a swirly, whirly day where your head goes out the window and despite any intentions you may have in advance about being social and gracious and talking to everyone. it’s not gonna happen.
it will be a blur. it will be overwhelming with all the emotion and love and lifelong commitments alone without worrying about the little piddly details. you are surrounded by friends and loved ones who will pick up the details. and even if a few things get missed here and there WHO CARES!
you will be beautiful. it’s your time. your day. and i’m coming to just be a part of it (as i’m sure most of your loved ones are)…and if anyone gets their nose out of joint because you aren’t paying enough attention to THEM, then they’ll have deal with me.
and we come visit your site because we want to know what going on in your adorable, hyper-active, control-freaky head as it is. so i say blather on, get it out, because when the big day comes. it will all be a blur.
as are all wonderful things in life.