Ok, so remember when I wrote my sappy birthday post about all the abundance in my life? Maybe it sounded woo-woo, and maybe you started wondering what was next: the waving about of sage bundles?

Whatever: I don’t care. You know why? The more I acknowledge all the blessings in my life and try to return and distribute the favors, the more abundance keeps pouring in! The faster I share it, the faster it flows. The more I try to helpfully pimp my friends, the more opportunities I keep stumbling across. The more amazing people I introduce to each other, the more amazing people I meet. The more I treat friends to meals or tip cute waiters 30%, the more I keep finding myself being treated and spoiled and gah!

I can’t share it all fast enough. I’ve been reduced to stealing parking tickets from friend’s cars, paying them quietly on the side. I can’t help myself from secretly ordering gifts for unsuspecting helpful types who have explicitly told me I don’t owe them anything. When an old friend told me about a great book idea she’s working on, I asked her if I could pass it on to my lit agent for consideration … and then couldn’t wait for her answer and referred her anyway.

But the abundance just keeps rising. It’s up to my knees now, with my boss informing me that the company I contract with wants to hire me permanently this fall — and they want me stay at my beloved part-time hours. Oh and they want to give me a raise. WTF?! And I got a call yesterday from a dotcom that’s interested in trying to find ways that they can work with me to promote my book using their product. And then there’s Andreas, who surprised me with book-finishing congratulatory gifts like sweet smelling oils from Tenzing Momo. What happens when all these blessings rise to my neck? Do I start gasping for air? Do I start coughing on all the goodness?

Naw … chances are that at that point my luck shifts, the blessings drain, and I start building from the bottom again.

UPDATE: I carefully considered deleting this post because I think for some it comes off as bragging. I guess I’m still working on the balance between somehow expressing gratitude and gloating. Thanks to everyone for your patience as I gracelessly try to figure it out. If anyone has any advice on how to deal with the issue, email me privately. Thanks.